Today marks 27 months of waiting.
I didn’t mean to be post-less since my post on 26 months. [What the heck did WordPress do in the past month – it is all different?!] It just happened that way. No worries, though. I have not been curled up in the fetal position for the past month. I’ve actually been doing pretty well, waiting-wise. I’ve had some hopefully temporary health issues (I will survive, for sure!) and a fair amount of unpleasant work stuff to distract me for most of the month. I had also written January off from the start of the month; something in me just knew that it would not be the month for our referral. Referrals in our age range haven’t come in consecutive months in well over a year, and the last ones were just before Christmas. Not that there’s any rhyme or reason to that, but I guess I’m holding on to any actual data I can at this point. Frankly, it was also an utter relief to get through the holidays and have them behind us. So the month of January actually went by fairly quickly in terms of The Wait.
In other news, like many I vowed to make some changes in the new year. They’re not resolutions, per se, but just things I’ve been thinking about and I needed the motivation of a clean slate to follow through. I’m working on eating better and drinking more water, and I’ve upped my exercise routine. I’m training to run my first 10k this spring and I finally got up the courage to go to a yoga class at my gym (and I’m loving it, even though the class starts at 5:45am). I’m also making some other self-improvements, like following a better skin care routine. I’m tired of being a 30-something woman with the skin of a teenager. And, I scheduled my first GYN exam in three years, after being emotionally paralyzed from past trauma in that general department. In short, I’m trying to spend some time taking better care of myself, before I permanently shift my focus to taking care of my child.
In the past couple of weeks there have been some really exciting developments for some of my adoption friends. This wonderful woman, who along with this wonderful woman has become a great support system to me in recent times as we all approached late stage waiting, was matched with a beautiful daughter! And another wonderful friend I’ve made throughout this all was matched with a daughter as well, through the foster care system! And these wonderful friends we met through the Ethiopia program are leaving tomorrow to meet and bring home their daughter from China! While I have found the online community to be invaluable in terms of information and support, I have to say that this is my favorite part of building relationships with others going through this process: the joyful part. I am so happy for these friends, and it certainly helps boosts my spirits when I can share in the joy others are experiencing. I cannot wait to hear and see more from these friends with their new daughters.
So, at 27 months, Craig and I continue on. Perhaps February is our month. Perhaps it isn’t. I’m not going to lie; of course our adoption is still foremost on my mind most days. Right now, though, it’s not all-consuming for me. It’s quite lovely to not feel like a crazy woman all of the time. However, I reserve all rights to return to cray-cray status at any given moment. 🙂